Monday, July 24, 2006

Goodbye Omitama

I made incredible progress yesterday; I finally returned my pendant to the dojo. Yes, I know what you’re thinking; I should have done it a long time ago, but I suppose the fear was still running rampant in my mind. I knew in my heart that the teachings were false but my mind was too fucked up to truly give up the pendant. I went to the dojo, walked in, but unlike usual I did not remove my shoes, or wash my hands, I entered the Doshi’s office and I dropped the pendant on his desk; he was in the shrine area offering okiyome. I wrote a short note on a post it; it said: I hope someday the truth will register in your mind and that you will be able to use your wonderful gift of communication to aid those who are still under the pendants spell-Lara. I did speak to anyone, just walked out. It was a moment of pure triumph; a chapter in my life that had finally ended. I felt as though a weight had been lifted off my shoulders; though I have to admit, I’d be lying if I told you the fear is completely gone. However, I am hopeful that someday I will be completely free of Sukyo Mahikari and their wretched teachings. When my time comes to die I will look forward to seeing my sister and knowing that I will come face to face with the kind, wonderful, benevolent creator, who is nothing like the tyrant SM tries to create. As Sukyo Mahikari burns out, its ashes scattered by the wind, I pray that it releases the hold it has on its prisoners, allowing them to dance and sing in the open air. Your doubts are not a spiritual disturbance. Do not ignore the mind and common sense God gave you.